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Just my opinions,thoughts, ramblings......
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I think the medicine is working for me. The happy pill. The pill for crazy people, as my sister's boyfriend put it. He said that in front of me not knowing that I take it. All I could say was "Well I guess I am one of those crazy people " He shut up.And no I do not like him. I feel sorry for him actually, but that is whole other story that I hate getting into.
I am starting to feel like myself again. Whatever that may be. I don't know, I don't think I have ever been really happy for some reason. I worry too much and fear everything. Sometimes I feel like I am dying and I hate feeling that way. Every little ache or pain I get, I am convinced that I have some incurable disease. So I go to the doctor and usually it is nothing to worry about. I was like this as a child. I would sit in my room and think about my breathing and then I would actually have trouble breathing, my heart would start racing and I became dizzy. I am dying I would think. Scary stuff for a child. I was having a panic attack but didn't know it then and I was too scared to tell my parents so I would keep having them. I never saw a Dr. When I became a teen and it was time for me to get my drivers license, I looked for excuses not to get it. I was scared to death of driving and am still to this day although it is better. I was 19 or 20 when I finally got my license. People didn't know just how terrified I was to drive and still do not know. Funny how I can spill my guts to the internet community and not my family. I wish I could be one of those carefree people who just go through life not worrying. I am shy ,very shy. I don't have any real life friends, no I take that back. I talk to a few people but there is no one person I can call friend. When I am having a bad day or something, I don't have anyone to call. My best friends are online. Geez sorry for the depressing post, I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. Just something that has been on my mind and needed to tell. Sort of like therapy I guess:O)
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Luvmy4kids at 9:42 AM
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w10.26.2000 |
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Added new blogger links and removed a few. Oh Lee I just love your new design!!! I wish I could come up with something like that:O)
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Luvmy4kids at 7:57 PM
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Wow! Thank you so much for the kind compliments!! I discovered your blog last week and was gonna say the same about your design:O) I also read your about me page and see that you are a huge fan of Rush? So am I! I don't know too many female fans, so it's nice to meet ya!
I really need to update my links list, I have so many new blogs bookmarked that I read now. Maybe I will get around to doing that today.
Thank you Betty:O) You know the saying, What comes around goes around.......Although if those people happen to ever be in that situation, I really do hope someone would help them out. LOL that is funny, not something I would want to see before lunch either:O)
Nick's appt. went fine. He still does hear his heart murmur but it is not a big deal anymore. Said it will eventually go away.Anyway I will be back on later to update my links list......hopefully!!
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Luvmy4kids at 3:02 PM
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Cam pic was updated:O)
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Luvmy4kids at 6:53 AM
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I am already tired of looking at this layout,Blech........I need to redo it but have no idea how I want it to look. I swear I am never gonna be satisfied with the way this thing looks.......I won't be able to blog much today. Taking Nick to the Dr. for his 6 month check up then heading over to mom and dad's to celebrate my dad's b-day so I will pretty much be gone all day...........Oh by the way Jay, I love the new look!
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Luvmy4kids at 6:39 AM
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w10.24.2000 |
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Bummer
Yes my car is still broke, well it runs but there is no way I am getting in that car with my kids and the possibilty of breaking down again is there. Until my hubby looks at the car, nope nada the car is parked. Anyway I have to leave, going shopping for Halloween costumes for the kiddies. And my mom is bringing me, I want a new car!!! I do have more to blog about and will do that later. I do have new blogger links to add soooooo until next time!
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Luvmy4kids at 9:11 AM
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w10.22.2000 |
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Breakdown,Breakdown!!
I am so pissed.......Nope I am not having a mental breakdown. This morning on the way to the bank my shitty ass car broke down, at a four way stop no less. And guess who happens to be with me? ALL three kids. It is not like I am driving a lemon or anything, I mean my car is a '95 and will be paid off in May *sigh* Thank goodness I was in a neighborhood and had houses all around me. Of course out of all the houses there I picked the house with snotty ass family. The kids were cool but the mom and dad, Geez you could have sworn I was a scuz bucket or something the way they acted. I know I am young and do have 3 kids, but that doesn't mean I am living off of the state or anything (which by the way is nothing wrong with that because I did need help from the state at one time) Anyway they did not let me in the house, but did let me use the phone to call my hubby and my mom so that she could take the kids. After I called them and brought the phone back to the lady she said in a sort of snotty tone " I am sorry but we are leaving" and proceeded to close the door. I was like oookay, thanks for the use of the phone, sorry I disturbed yall. It was not like I wanted to go inside her house and have coffee with her. I wasn't going to go inside if she asked anyway....would have been to weird. So there we are sitting in the car with the hazard lights on in front of this family's house, and I start crying!! Uuugghhh I guess it was the way I felt I was treated, I don't know. All I know is I didn't want hubby and my mom to see my like that so I straightened up before they got there. I didn't want them to think that I wasn't in control of the situation, which I felt like I wasn't. I do have to thank the other people who so graciously stopped and moved my car out of the way so other people could pass, and everyone who was nice enough to stop to see if I needed help. Thank yall. Needless to see we got the car home, of course it started up right away when hubby got there, so I felt like a BIG HUGE idiot. Oh well.....now I have to figure out how I am going to get around town, I hate bumming rides even if it is from my mom, UUGGHHH!!!
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Luvmy4kids at 11:57 AM
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